The silence, skipping the painful phrases, it became normal. I got used to it now. The creepy sound of the adapter and the crappy sound of CPU fan. Increasing the rpm as my heartbeat increases. I preferred to think that I didn't see, some time I read it again and again just for the fun of pinching myself. Ha ha pinching... :). The bizarre mind.. lol I believe now it is pretty usual is int it. I don't feel like not to. I am lost or you are loosing me. I am not getting words. So? What is it for me? better avoid it.. Let me get lost in ever forgetting dreams and never remembering days. Now expecting the worst and hoping the best, hope.. ya still hoping. Now with a 100 years of Solitude... still more to come.